True Stories I Made Up

I play bass from time to time... in a cowboy hat.

If we’re gonna have it out, let’s have it out
you always said you were sure I had every doubt
if you need to talk for a little while
I’ll be here but I’ll be lying with a smile
and now someone else is taking off the clothes
someone else is taking off the clothes that you once bought me
it’s sad cause your love is like a bus
I may miss you but I know more will come

I know I said I never lied
but there are a few things I just had to hide
this will hurt a point that I must stress
because the next twenty minutes girl surely won’t be my best

I hate to say that alcohol save my career
but if she didn’t drink so much then I wouldn’t be here
and my patience is a wicked thing
I've out waited wedding rings
oh no..

I know I said I never lied
but there are a few things I just had to hide
this will hurt a point that I must stress
because the next twenty minutes love surely won’t be my best

What if I never get things right?
and always lost after the thing that I can’t have
what if I never see the point?
of it, of it, of it, of it, of it, of it, of it, of it

I know I said I never lied
but there are a few things I just had to hide
this will hurt a point that I must stress
because the next twenty minutes girl surely won’t be my best

I fucked someone with words, broke a promise
You forgave but you won't forget
I pray the day will come, when you see I was numb
Till you burned me with your cigarette
But each fight leaves my vocal chords shattered
I sing with my gums spiked with glass
I pray and I beg like a dog
Hump your leg till you spay my sorry, broke ass

Singing:
Why do you, always have to push me far away from you?
All I want is to stay with you
So naive, each time you leave, I always still believe in you
Know that I'm holding you down
Now you're out on the town
The courage you found is spitting in spite of me
Leaving me dead on the ground

Cater to me or I'll punch myself until my face is blue
Later you'll be just as sorry as me for the things you do

If I'm an arrogant prick shitting out heart attacks
Then you're the queen of the dammed: feelingless, devoid of tact
Hey I'm the crazy one here! I'm dying of a deep regret

But I can't stand these nights I've spent alone, awake, begging
Tearing my face apart like cheap leggings
I'm sorry my love, I'm gone
You keep egging this on
I'm gone, I'm gone, I'm gone

(Pack my shit up and go, I'm getting wasted)
What did I just do?
(Pack my shit up and go, I'm gonna face this)
What did I just do?
(Pack my shit up and go, I'm getting wasted)
What did I just do?
(Pack my shit up and go, I'm gonna face this)
What did I just do?

I can't imagine all the people that you know
And the places that you go
When the lights are turned down low
And I don't understand all the things you've seen
But I'm slipping in between
You and your big dreams
It's always you
In my big dreams

And you tell me that it's over
Wake up lying in a patch of four leaf clover
And you're restless, and I'm naked
You've got to get out
You can't stand to see me shaking, no
Could you let me go?
I didn't think so

And you don't want to be here in the future
So you say the present's just a pleasant
Interruption to the past
And you don't want to look much closer
Because you're afraid to find out all this hope
You had sent into the sky by now had crashed
And it did
Because of me

And then you bring me home
Afraid to find out that you're alone
And I'm sleeping in your living room
But we don't have much room to live

I had these dreams in them I learned to play guitar
Maybe cross the country
Become a rock star
And there was hope in me that I could take you there
But damnit, you're so young
Well, I don't think I care
And if I hurt you
Then I'm sorry
Please don't think that this was easy

Then you'd bring me home
Because we both know what it's like to be alone
And I'm dreaming in your living room
But we don't have much room to live

And Konstantine is walking down the stairs
Doesn't she look good
Standing in her underwear?
And I was thinking
What I was thinking
We've been drinking and it doesn't get me anywhere

My Konstantine came walking down the stairs
And all that I could do is touch her long blonde hair
And I've been thinking
It hurts me thinking that these nights when we were drinking
No, they never got us anywhere, no

This is because I can spell confusion with a 'k'
And I can like it
It's to dying in another's arms and why I had to try it
It's to Jimmy Eat World and those nights in my car
When the first star you see may not be a star
I'm not your star
Isn't that what you said
What you thought this song meant

And if this is what it takes
Just to lie with my mistakes
And live with what I did to you
All the hell I put you through
I always catch the clock
It's 11:11
And now you want to talk
It's not hard to dream
You'll always be my Konstantine

My Konstantine, they'll never hurt you like I do
No, they'll never hurt you like I do
No, no, no, no, no, no, no, no

This is to a girl who got into my head
With all the pretty things she did
Hey, you know
You keep me up in bed
This is to a girl who got into my head
With all these fucked up things I did
Hey, maybe, baby
You could keep me up in bed
My Konstantine
You spin around me like a dream
We played out on this movie screen
And I said
Did you know I missed you?
Did you know I missed you?
Did you know I missed you?
Did you know I missed you?
Did you know I missed you?
Did you know I missed you?
Did you know I missed you?
I miss you

And then you bring me home
And we'll go to sleep, but this time not alone, no, no
And you'll kiss me in your living room
I know
You'll miss me in your living room
Because these nights I think maybe that
I'll miss you in my living room
We don't have much room
I said does anybody need that room?
Because we all need a little more room
To live

My Konstantine

Think I'm goin home
I think I'm gettin lost for a while
Tired of getting stoned
And thinkin' about you in the night

So I'll file away all my dreams
Though I still believe in everything

I wished your love away
I wished your love away

Honestly over you
Honestly over you
One lie short of true
Honestly over you

Lookin for some hope
Polished off the whiskey tonight
You turned a man to stone
For lookin at you straight in the eyes

So I'll drive away with all my things
Though I've a faint belief in everything

I wished your love away
I wished your love away

Honestly over you
Honestly over you
And I'll tell the world
Honestly over you

I wished your love away...

Some days, I just don't want to get out of bed.

My heart woke up my head like a thunderstorm;
a place where I can barely stand.
I spent a winter without my air,
but now I feel it in my chest.
I'm just so sick of the scenery,
and all those hours without sex.
I get so tired of being me,
but now I'm feeling this again.

And God knows that you can't see after dark,
but I won't give this up cause I wrote it on my chest.

So tell me what you think of the atmosphere
and all those months inside my head.
Well do you really believe in me?
I will hold this like a gun
because I've got some things to do (say what you are, say what you are)
Because I've got some things to do


I filled up all my future with written words.
I told the whole world I was spent.
I came around when they needed me,
and that's just how I learned to give
with all the feelings and losing sleep;
It is here where I found hope
It wasn't really buried deep
and now I never want to go.

And God knows that you can't see after dark,
but I won't give this up cause I wrote it on my chest.

So tell me what you think of the atmosphere
and all those months inside my head.
Well do you really believe in me?
I will hold this like a gun
because I've got some things to do (say what you are, say what you are)
Because I've got some things to do

Yeah I do.
I've got all these plans laid out again like this is war;
and I want to touch the coast again.
I'll forget to take my voice as going,
forget to hold my breath as spoken,
and say don't you remember where you've been.

So tell me what you think of the atmosphere
and all those months inside my head.
Well do you really believe in me?
I will hold this like a gun
because I've got some things to do (say what you are, say what you are)
Because I've got some things to do
Because I've got some things to do
because I've got some things to do (say what you are, say what you are)
Because I've got some things to do

WIll I have learned so very little
When these bones are old and brittle?
I wait to talk when I should listen
And cloud mistakes with false revisions

All my friends are forward-thinking
Getting hitched and quitting drinking
And I can feel them pulling away
As I'm resigned to stay the same

And you can't even begin to know
How many times I've told myself "I told you so"

I was once a loyal lover
Whose lips did never seek another's
But now each love's more like a match
A blinding spark that burns out fast

And they all conclude with the same sentence:
"I've never met someone more self-centered
Who thinks that life with a nice girl's like
Waiting for a bus to work"

And you can't even begin to know
How many times I've told myself "I told you so"
And you can't even begin to believe
There's so many bridges engulfed in flames behind me

If you deem it so
Just cut the cord and go
You'll be fine
There's plenty of hills to climb

You can't even begin to know
How many times I've told myself "I told you so"
And you can't even begin to believe
There's so many bridges engulfed in flames behind me

Let me guide you through the story of a boy and his curse
Tiny diamond in his stroller with his first step chasing the hearse
Sippin' at a cup that's half way filled
But looking forward to the day he pays that drinking bill

There's no peace, there's no quiet on this earth
He confided, nestled tightly in that womb beneath the dirt
Hurt no more and when he turned 24
He wrote a note to nail to God's front door that said

I want death
Death for my birthday
I want death
Death in the worst way
I want death
Death for my birthday

Don't get me wrong cause..

I love life
But life has a boyfriend
Bless my soul
I'm out to destroy them
I want death
Death for my birthday

For my birthday

From the high paying job and the love of his life
He rode a roller coaster ride of lust on their wedding night
They made a baby in unmentionable ways
He was ungrateful as a man could be on that blessed day

And underneath he thought this is all a phase
Just a blip in the existence of a structure vast and great
Pray each night to his cross of a charm
For the one thing he couldn't afford just to buy the farm

I want death
Death for my birthday
I want death
Death in the worst way
I want death
Death for my birthday

Don't get me wrong cause..

I love life
But life has a boyfriend
Bless my soul
I'm out to destroy them
I want death
Death for my birthday

For my birthday

I'll never lose another friend again
Or watch them start a war that's fought for ideals that are dead
I'll never have an argument again

Because my dust
will be your salt
My blood will hydrate you off
My heart will be your meal
And I won't ride the cycle of the way it kills to think and feel
No more, no

I want death
Death for my birthday
I want death
Death in the worst way
I want death
Death for my birthday

Don't get me wrong cause..

I love life
But life has a boyfriend
Bless my soul
I'm out to destroy them
I want death
Death for my birthday

For my birthday

One sweet day his heart ceased to beat
He fell so fast beneath all our feet
Through bugs and snakes
Last words he had to say were

Help me claw my way to the surface
Oh sweet lord you know I deserve this
Just one more, just one more birthday

dream, baby for me
i'll be waiting here for you
pack your seams, fly to me
scatter me across the sky
i'll shine all night
and just like a star
i'll fall for you

baby, if you want me to
i'd do anything for you
just say the words
and i'd give you the world
but that's not good enough

starlit sea will be our dance floor
and birds will sing our song
and your scars, your scars will heal
for you

and baby if you wanted me to
then why not say so
let me go cause i cant shine
bright enough for you

dream, baby for me
i'll be waiting here for you